All that could have been...

i wish it could of worked out..
i gave it my all and when i did not
see things change i knew i could not
give any more....he was my best friend
he was my everything and here lately
all he has been is a stranger.
he never calls and rarely texts.
i feel he has lost interest in me and
thats the worst feeling to have.
it will be hard to end what we had
almost 5 years of my life was dedicated
to one person...i can not continue something
just because its what i am use to and
what i think should be. i think back to all
the good times..but even that does not help..
the bad seems to seep in and change the
view of things drastically.
this is very unfortunate.
i hate this...

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i give up.
i am not going to
try anymore.
i cannot put myself through
this shit anymore.
this is me saying
:over and out:
this panda bear
will not cry
anymore...

panda.robot
o| . _ . |o

Dont Forget Your Dramamine!!

I just went to see Quarantine
Little did i know it was shot with
a hand held camera.
I should of figured you know with the
camera crew stuck inside that it would
be shot like Cloverfield or Blair Witch Project.
However, I do respect that it was shot with a
real camera and not a home camera much
like it was in the two movies mentioned above!
I also did not know it was a remake of a Spanish film
called [REC].
Now I am on a mission to see this so called original
film..and its greatness.
All the reviews say it should not of been remade
it was good as it was...however i feel Quarantine
was an excellent movie...so i must see how
much better this horrible scenario could get!!
I also enjoyed never really finding out
what happened or why this happened.
Movies that end like that are aggravating
but at the same time really good.
When they are shot from first person, i don't feel
the audience should have any advantage
of knowledge!!

| . _ . | confused | . _ . |

i will never understand people.
i guess its ok that i dont.
i will just keep putting myself
through the same shit everyday
because that is what i am use to.
i hope for change but know it wont
happen. and im ok with it.

i have made a new friend up here.
She is my panda bear.
We have alot in common.
She is a life saver.
im really happy that i have a friend.
it is nice to not be alone..
and to actually have someone to talk too
and someone that cares about you.


o| . _ . |o panda robot! o| . _ . |o

Abandoned Change

I have started a new project called abandoned change.
this project was started to help protect all the change
that gets left behind on the ground. the slogan for this
project is "no penny left behind"
it is a very sad situation for this loose change
and we need to stick together and help them out.
So if anyone wants to help out please do and get back
to me with the updates.
So far i have saved 35 cents from being abandoned.
you can too.

Would you?

| . _ . | PINBACK | . _ . |

Today is good... | . _ . |

Breakfast:
2 smores poptarts
6 roasted garlic triscuit
to drink lemonade

Snack:
10 grasshopper mint cookies
to drink raspberry lemonade

Dinner:
Triple layer nachos
Cheese roll up
Bean burrito
to drink mountain dew

Dessert:
Single serving bag of
garden herb and olive oil
popcorn
to drink lemonade

Aug. 8th 2008 | . _ . |

Lunch:
Shrimp Ramen with corn and carrots
to drink cool fusion gatorade

Dinner:
Triple layer nachos
Cheese roll up
7 layer burritto
to drink mountain dew

Dessert:
6 grasshopper mint cookies
to drink lemonade

Aug 7th 2008 | . _ . |

Breakfast:
2 scrambled eggs with
veggie sausage
to drink riptide rush gatorade

Lunch:
Veggie quesadilla
to drink coke

Dinner:
4 veggie egg rolls
to drink riptide rush gatorade

Aug 6th 2008 | . _ . |

Lunch:
Cheese Manacotti
to drink lemonade

Dinner:
12 inch veggie sub from subway
to drink cool fusion gatorade

Snack:
5 chocolate chip cookies
to drink hot chocolate

Late night snack:
1 veggie chicken patty

Another Day | . _ . |

Lunch:
Shrimp Ramen with carrots and corn
6 Roasted Garlic triscuits
to drink lemonade

Snack:
2 Smores poptarts
to drink lemonade

Dinner:
3 veggie sausage links
1 veggie chicken patty
to drink lemonade

What's for dinner? | . _ . |

Breakfast:
Bowl of kashi go lean
to drink lemonade

Lunch:
Bowl of Teriyaki noodles
to drink stawberry water

Dinner:
Bowl of rice krispie treat cereal
to drink lemonade

My food diary. | . _ . |

Lunch:
A bowl of three cheese rotini
to drink lemonade

Dinner:
Shrimp Ramen with corn and carrots
to drink raspberry lemonade

Foooood | . _ . |

Dinner:
9 piece tempura shrimp sushi
8 piece spicy shrimp sushi
to drink riptide rush gatorade

Dessert:
3 grasshopper mint cookies
to drink lemonade

What do you eat? | . _ . |

Lunch:
Mixed vegetables [corn and carrots]
to drink gatorade g2 [orange]

Snack:
2 grasshopper mint cookies.
to drink gatorade g2 [orange]

Dinner:
Three cheese rotini
to drink gatorade g2 [orange]

Food for the Soul | . _ . |

Breakfast:
a bowl of rice krispie treat cereal
to drink gatorade g2 [orange]

Lunch:
Shrimp Ramen with corn and carrots
to drink mountain dew

Dinner:
Peanut butter and marshmellow cream sandwich
to drink mountain dew

Dessert:
A single serving bag of
garden herb olive oil popcorn
to drink mountain dew

i lub pie | . _ . |

Breakfast:
a bowl of strawberry rice krispies
to drink mountain dew

Lunch:
Shrimp Ramen with corn and carrots
to drink mountain dew

Snack:
A single serving bag of
garden herb olive oil popcorn
to drink mountain dew

Dessert:
5 grasshopper mint cookies
to drink mountain dew

Breakfast of champions | . _ . |

Breakfast:
a bowl of strawberry rice krispies

Lunch:
a single serving of
sweet n sour chow mein
to drink riptide rush gatorade

Snack:
4 white fudge chunky chips ahoy
to drink a half a cup of milk

Dinner:
shrimp ramen with corn and carrots
to drink mountain dew

Food for thought | . _ . |

Breakfast:
2 small veggie patties
3 small veggie sausage links
to drink riptide rush

Snack:
a bowl of strawberry rice krispies

Dinner:
Shrimp Ramen with
some corn and carrots added
to drink diet rite white grape

yum | . _ . |

So i have been prompted to make a food journal.
i have been told to do this because my stomach always
hurts and i dont know why.

So far today i had:
Breakfast:
2 eggs over medium
2 pieces of toast w/ butter
4 little veggie sausage links
to drink i had riptide rush gatorade

Lunch:
Veggie Quesadilla
Some chips and salsa
to drink a coke with no ice.

Snack:
1 Saucer Peach

Dinner:
2 small veggie patties
and some garden salsa sun chips
to drink riptide rush gatorade

Dessert:
2 shots of jagermister
2 shots of redbull
1 shot of bearenjager

Blue Lights Flashing in My Rearview Mirror.....

So I got pulled over last night. Well kinda...
So I get off work and I'm on my way home and I realize that I am being followed closely...so I do what anyone would do and I brake check the douche behind me. Well I then proceed to come to a complete stop to turn into my neighborhood. So then the guy behind me puts on his brights and then he passes under a street lamp and low and behold its a cop. So he continues to follow me almost to my house but I actually decided to do his job for him...I pull over the car and turn it off and he pulls in behind me and turns the lights on..[there was really no reason for the lights i was already pulled over] Then he comes up to the window and he only gets out do you...and I'm like let me guess you are either pulling me over for my tag being in the window or you wanna see who is driving a hearse? He looked at me and I said I guess its for the tags. Then we proceed to discuss the tag situation and he asks for my drivers license and insurance. My insurance card is expired but I told him the new was at my house..five feet away!! Well I guess he didnt like the fact that I was being a smart ass so he went back to his car and ran my licence..[which by the way is clean] he was taking so long back there I just knew I was going to get a ticket..sure enough he comes back and is like "Im not gonna give you a ticket for the insurance but I am going to give you for improper display of a tag" HOW GAY!

Content with the Events

I am so glad I went and saw Dax.
It was ok that I went by myself because when I got there I saw like six people I knew so I was not alone. I am very upset though that I fuckin left my camera at home. That was the only thing that made me upset last night. Everything else was great. I got a shirt that I can wear [I didnt get him to sign it]. And also while I was there one of the six people that I ran into was actually someone I have been meaning to get in touch with. He is a photographer and I wanted him to take some professional like pictures of me with my car. Not only for personal reason but I want to send some to my penpal. The funny thing about that is, before I could even finish my sentence he finished it for me. He had the same idea about taking some pictures of my car. So that works out pretty good, he put me in the calender but didnt get my phone number...so I dont know how thats going to work out, he will probably message me on myspace or something [I hope]. Well thats all for tonight. I'm kinda tired...

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The Lonely Robot...

ever had a day a snow cone cant fix?
well i need a snow cone right about now..

other than that im going to see dax in hattiesburg tomorrow...

by myself..but i guess i need to grow up and go out on my own..i have done
it before for dax i guess i can do it again..and i mean im about to move there so i guess i need to get use to the area and stuff!!
I guess i will post about it when i get back..im sure it will be fun..i hope..

ok?
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I need a fork. | . _ . |

So in my last days in Memphis, I decided to stay with my boyfriend [Caleb]. Well it was the day before I left and I wanted some ramen noodles. Well little did I know we left all his dishes at my house, because he was using my dishwasher one last time! I had already started making the ramen before I realized that there was nothing to eat it in or eat it with....This led both of us to think of all the different ways to eat ramem...well none of those ideas panned out to well. So then Caleb has the bright idea to make a fork out of a red bull can..I guess it really does vitalize your mind! I know what your thinking...thats just crazy its never gonna work! Well I thought the same thing...but he started in on the can making the best thing he could. And this is what came of it all...

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blogs are stupid. there is no point for me to have one. i have a myspace and thats the most inactive myspace ever...so i dont need another depressing inactive thing to keep up with....

Hello

This is my new blog!! Yay for blogs!!